Life Definitions: Caught Up

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So, I’m getting caught up in this thing that’s going on with this guy. My cousin keeps saying to me, “Does he have a girlfriend?”

And I honestly don’t know. She’s right, I don’t know anything personal about him aside from the fact that he has kids. Yes KIDS with an S!

But I think he’s very nice. He’s funny, and although he doesn’t get my sense of humor yet, he responds positively to my idiocy. Which is more than I can ask for in a guy.

As you can see…I’m letting my heart get involved in this one…bad Titi, BAD! I know…but I want someone in my life to talk to and laugh with, and yes…be intimate with. It has been so long, and I feel that asking for someone who cares for me is not so much. I may not deserve it, but I feel like I’ve earned it damn it!

Long story, short…I like him. And if we are nothing but friends, he’s still someone I would like to get to know. All the guys at work are…I’ve missed hanging out with the male population, they keep me sane…no offense my loves, but you girls are CrAzY!

Life Definitions: Today is a not so Good Day

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So my boss told me last week that I needed to act like everything was urgent. What she doesn’t know is that I used to have really bad panic attacks, if I act like everything is urgent, I won’t be able to function without breaking down into tears.

So today, she asks if I have sent out some invites to our Board members. I hadn’t because I needed to go to the post office to get them stamped, and there was just too much going on yesterday to find the time. But I should have told her. I know this, and it is my fault for not following up with her.

But today she tells me that the invites and envelopes should have been ready last week and it was my responsiblilty to make sure they went out two days ago. And I couldn’t argue with that because it is my responsibility…that’s my job.

I wanted to explain why they didn’t go out, but I couldn’t even remember when the invites came in, just like I didn’t remember to tell her about the postage issue. I wanted to; I told myself that I would; but by the time I walked back to my desk, I’d forgotten.

So I act too calm and I’m forgetful. These things are going to cost me my job. And I don’t know what to do. JoJo told me to walk around with a note pad, but how do I explain to my boss that I have to stay calm, or I’ll break down at work, probably right in front of her.

I just want to go into the restroom and cry right now.

Life Definitions: So I got stood up

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Yeah, he completely stood me up…

Then sent me a text at 9:30 in the morning apologizing, saying, “I’m so sorry about last night…showered then fell asleep. Good morning, are you coming to work today?”

And I told myself, “that could be true…”

Then I was running around all day, so I texted late in the day and asked if he could talk…

He said he was driving and would call me in ten.

This was on Saturday around 6pm.

It is now Monday around 10am…no phone call. I wonder if I should be more upset than I actually am? I mean, I’m dissappointed of course…I was really looking forward to hanging out Friday…but I did get my drinks, I spent some time with the roomies, which is always fun.

So, yeah, I got stood up…C’est la vie!

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