Post Script: NPM: Haven (Poem 24)

Somewhere where we are free, playing
Seals sit laughing, sea grass swaying
Somewhere the seagulls float across
No sadness stirs here and no loss
Somewhere the salt breeze is saying

There is no need for the praying
Here’s where you should plan on staying
We shall look for shells and sea moss
Somewhere where we are free

Where the sunset keeps delaying
And the ocean keeps on spraying
While we wait for the Northern Cross
We will sift through sand and emboss
Our vision of bliss, portraying
Somewhere where we are free

Post Script: NPM: Rebirth (Poem 16)

Tired of crying on frigid bathroom floors
I have reached out of my self-imposed shell
Deciding to open up these barred doors

That have me trapped in this personal hell
Amusing how simple a hurt to shelf
When you’ve stopped hearing the song of Death’s knell

When you’ve stopped distorting the view of yourself
As nothing but a body to please him
Start seeing your soul in and of itself

That waits for you with joy, so full to the brim
With love that sounds like your own personal hymn

Post Script: NPM: Freedom (Poem 15)

A poem for you

Before I say goodbye

Can only look at you in sadness

Don’t know where we went wrong

Every thought of happiness

Forgotten in my hurt

Gets old quickly these

Harsh words and cruel actions

I want only my freedom

Just a small moment of peace

Kicking and screaming is our modus operandi

Let me go and let me cut my losses

Meet me halfway and

Not with anger

Old hurts and new

Pull at my heartstrings, but all I want is

Quiet and calm

Relief from our bickering

Silence from our yelling

Tear my soul apart and

Under all of this torture lies a heart

Very tender and pure

Withheld from your love out of spite

Xenophobe to my love as if the

Yes, as if the thought of it’s

Zeal was too much for you to bear

Post Script: NPM: All the World’s a Stage (Poem 14)

Stark lights flash on flesh
that bleeds out under the glare.
Is it just me out here?

I think I hear laughter but maybe,
it is just my echo bouncing
off the noiseless gloom,
causing my stumble out of the light.

Knees planted firmly on heartwood,
I look down into the hollow.

True self, solid form,
taunting me – its pallid echo.

Post Script: NPM: From My Lips to Your Heart (Poem 8)

My voice is a thunderstorm. The words –

pillars balanced for a millisecond

on the cusp of my lips, waiting

to topple over into your ear.

 

It becomes a tempest coiling

like ensnared vapor in a mirror.

Its pledge binds your heart –

promises of us, everlasting.

 

Now it trembles and quakes

like suppressed magma,

unable to express the seething ecstasy

that beats through my vena

at the thought of you.

Post Script: NPM: Navy Roses (Poem 7)

You used to tend to roses,
scarlets and blondes,
as if they would bring back
the one that you lost to the sea.

Now all they are,
are reminders of the little hands
and little feet that came running
to help with your roses. Dashing off
to fight waves in timber boats
only once done tending fragile shoots.

Water baby you called him.
Barely able to stay on land
long enough to tend to your
sugar-tinged bouquet
mixing with sea-tinged air
that seemed to surround him always.

Passing with the seasons,
roots, stem, leaves and bulb.
Gardening gloves too large
for fingers that were as quick
to rip up weeds as they were
to thrust up sails.

Protected from rain and snow,
your rose garden flourished.
Nourished by your love,
your son blossomed.
Meticulous and proud you were,
carefully tending until they both grew strong.

Now steel has replaced wood and bullets, roses.
He no longer rips up wild plant, instead
he blasts apart his fellow man
with the same hands. Except
they’re not so little anymore.

All you have left are memories of times
when he tended your rose garden,
turning over hard earth with shovel,
the same earth he now destroys with bombs.

Spent are the lazy summers, in their place,
eternal winters where men are determined
by what they do and judged
by those they are sworn to protect.

Gone the delight of silky reds and sleek golds.
All too quickly their season ended.
Now your rose garden is windswept, trodden
its florid bursts diminished. Starving for light
but never thirsting for tears.

Post Script: NPM: La Petite Mort (Poem 6)

Pushing.
A heavy pressure
I’ve grown accustomed to
this weight pressing
into my stomach

Heavy breathing
comes with his
excursion.

Suffocating
heat on my neck,
my brow

In a few minutes
he will look down
puckered brow
he will withdraw

Post Script: NPM: I will never hold you (Poem 5)

I will never hold you,
never count your perfect hands and toes
or smooth away your downy hair from your wrinkled face.
I will never feel your grip and be proud of your strength.

I will never hear you cry,
wanting what only I can give,
comfort, warmth, sustenance.
I will never decorate your nursery
or pick out baby clothes.
I will never know what you feel like, smell like,
your wants and needs.

I won’t watch you grow,
be proud at your achievements,
and worry for your safety.

I won’t cry on your first day of daycare,
wondering if you’ll be alright.
Share your first Christmas, overdo your first birthday.
Worry about sending you to college.

I will never sing to you until you fall asleep,
talk to you about drugs, sex, friendship, love,
laugh and cry with you.
Hear you call me mama for the first time.

I will never hug you, comfort you,
or get to teach you right from wrong.
I will never fret when you get your first cold,
your first crush, your first heartbreak.

I won’t even give you a name,
hear your heart beat for the first time,
or know whether you’re a boy or girl.

But I will remember you and keep you in my heart.
You will be remembered because I will never forget.

Post Script: NPM: April Spray (Poem 4)

Indigo and cherry bloom towards a sky
clear and cobalt as a still brook,
air moist after an April spray.
Balmy winds hold back what should be a bitter day,
lifting up wet strands of hair, and caressing
the skin of my neck.I push back my backpack, enter the building
and miss all the beauty God is showing me.

Post Script: NPM: IselaRose (Poem 3)

There once grew a rose on an isle
The only flower around for a mile
Then a breeze came by
And made the rose fly
Thoughts of its flight make me smile