When I tell you I am grinning from ear to ear…I’m not exaggerating. I really am.
I’ve been at this job for 3 months now. When I first started, I had the tiniest monitor you could imagine. Suffice it to say, Titi was not happy. But I made do, I learned to not see the fact that I had books propping up to a decent level (not eye level, mind you, but decent). I learned not to notice that some of the web pages just overflowed when looking at them on the screen. I ignored the slowness and the freezing and all the other horrendous things that was happening to me because my computer was from 1998.
But then yesterday, Joe, our IT guy, says he will install my NEW COMPUTER tomorrow at noon. Well…I just about fainted right there by his desk.
So today, I came to work and decided I wouldn’t even think about, just in case it didn’t happen. I went out to lunch with the development team and when I came back, I noticed that there was something off about my desk.
My monitor was taking up more space!!!
Well, I flipped out, I pulled every employee I could find to show them the glorious, beautiful, wide screen of my computer.
So today is my first day at work. I just got in at 9AM sharp! Not bad for me…after sitting and talking to my new boss, I was brought around and introduced to everyone…AAAHHHH. (It wasn’t so bad)
I have filled out my paperwork (mostly) and am officially an employee. All I have to do now is figure out how to do my work.
I have no idea where to start. The person who had my position previously was, let’s face it, amazing! She left me a binder with all the information I will need to not die a horrible painful death my first week here. Other than that, I have a brief view of what is upcoming in terms of events. I should be feeling pretty confident, but I think I’m going into overload.
My most pressing questions?
When’s lunch and how long do I get. I might go sit in front of the courthouse and bask in the sun for a bit. Walk around and find all the subway entrances and do all the things that I can’t do during rush hour.
I miss my old coworkers and my computer set up VERY MUCH right now, but I think by Nov. I might be able to talk them into giving me at least a bigger screen…if you can see in the photo, that blob of light is my monitor…yeah I know!! other than that, some extra desk space would be nice, as I like to have a lot of storage space.
Other than those small things (lol) I love it here so far!
I have to say, my coworkers are the BEST! And I am such a sucker…Even though I kind of thought I would a going away party, by 5pm I was ready to give up on that idea. So here I am, saying goodbye to the wonderful ladies in coat check, sitting in the Museum Store, talking to my cousin…and I get a phone call to come upstairs. On my way up, I see Johnny…that should have been hint number 1!
So I get upstairs and Eduardo brings me to the hallway to get some “books” (hint number 2)…I open the door…and it is all my coworkers…standing in ambush for me with sweet goodbyes and red velvet cake…I mean…could a girl ask for a better last day than this? Lunch with my awesome development team members and the RED VELVET CAKE with the rest of my coworkers??
And they can keep a secret like no one’s business!
Sometimes, I question my common sense, I mean really. For everyone to be gone before 5pm? But I really wasn’t expecting that AT ALL. As I sit here and write this post about how wonderful and influential these women and men have been to me over the last two years, I find myself fighting tears.
They have helped me grow into a confident, professional woman, with the ability to be anything and do anything I want. I know I’ve said this before, but I cannot see myself working anywhere else these last two years.
You can accumulate a lot of stuff sitting in an office for two years. Now that I have to pack my things I find myself going stark raving mad…its like breaking up with a live-in partner and being the one that has to leave. With each new thing packed away a memory is relived. I will miss these people and this place…
When I graduated NYU I knew that I didn’t want to go into the corporate world, but it wasn’t until speaking to Cely that I realized that nonprofit was where I was going to end up. I went on Idealist and I found a job.
I was one of the lucky few who managed to find something even in the economy we were in. Granted, they didn’t pay as much as I thought I would need to survive but it was a paycheck and I needed to get out of the house. I couldn’t stay without work anymore! I told myself that two years was the limit. After two years I would find something else and move on. After my first year though, I decided that my job was pretty great (minus a few people and bumps along the way). And that maybe I would stay a little longer than two years.
But true to my nature, a week after my second anniversary and the announcement that Dee got a new job…I was ready to start looking again – maybe. I applied to one job and a few days later I got an email asking me to come in for an interview and lo and behold, I discover that the woman I am replacing was at the wedding that I went to in San Fransisco at the end of June. It is such a small world!
After my second interview, my references were checked and I was offered a job. I cannot describe the feelings that are going through me right now. I am part excited, part nervous. I love the people I work with, I have made amazing friends along the way and wouldn’t change them for ANYTHING in the world. And now I have to start over without the support of knowing everyone else in my department is new at this too.
This is an amazing opportunity and comes at a time in my life where I need to start fresh and maybe even a little new. I just hope that I can live up to the upgrade and continue to experience such good fortune and keep the Blessing God has deemed me worthy of.
So my boss told me last week that I needed to act like everything was urgent. What she doesn’t know is that I used to have really bad panic attacks, if I act like everything is urgent, I won’t be able to function without breaking down into tears.
So today, she asks if I have sent out some invites to our Board members. I hadn’t because I needed to go to the post office to get them stamped, and there was just too much going on yesterday to find the time. But I should have told her. I know this, and it is my fault for not following up with her.
But today she tells me that the invites and envelopes should have been ready last week and it was my responsiblilty to make sure they went out two days ago. And I couldn’t argue with that because it is my responsibility…that’s my job.
I wanted to explain why they didn’t go out, but I couldn’t even remember when the invites came in, just like I didn’t remember to tell her about the postage issue. I wanted to; I told myself that I would; but by the time I walked back to my desk, I’d forgotten.
So I act too calm and I’m forgetful. These things are going to cost me my job. And I don’t know what to do. JoJo told me to walk around with a note pad, but how do I explain to my boss that I have to stay calm, or I’ll break down at work, probably right in front of her.
I just want to go into the restroom and cry right now.